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Update for you  if you have been following my journey and the current hit with prostate cancer. I have just started on a course of tablets as a starter for course of injections commencing 12/12 & o nce a month = Hormone Theraphy  to help block the growth of the big C I still have another scan on Monday forthcoming. Then I guess all the info will be in -  Investigations done and I will know the extent of the spread into bone & other parts. I have a yet to meet with the top urologist Consultant who, I understand, will give me the prognosis and will kick off my treatment proper. Feelings-wise:: I don't feel ill. Trying to keep up my exercise. Eating healthy food & no alcohol as pretty normal. The toughest is not being able to ask at my range of favourite Coffee Bar staff for a "a Flat White and a smile please". I have been advised to stop the coffee & tea - ALL CAFFEINE but re...

The Pip Wilson I know  is an Author but doesn't write - Just reflects on life. But mainly and mostly - I want you to know that  .. ..you are beautiful. * Sessions I facilitate are active  - involving - engaging -  no lectures  ( I never take 'SPEAKING' engagements -  they are always interactive)

Jean Vanier, 'Becoming Human’. "The heart is never "successful." It does not want power, honours, privilege or efficacy; it seeks a personal relationship with another, a communion of hearts, which is the to-and-from of love. This opening of the heart implies vulnerability and the offering of our needs and weaknesses. The heart gives and receives but above all, it gives. The heart goes out to those who are humble and who cry out in the weakness and  their need for understanding and love. It is the human heart and its need for communion that weakens the walls of ideology and prejudice. It leads us from closedness to openness, from the illusion of superiority to vulnerability and humility. Because of this instead of finding security in the group we find it in our hearts, which have found a new inner strength, a real maturity.” Jean Vanier, 'Becoming Human'. BHP

I asked for permission to post here to help you see feel a different reality. Of course I don't know yours - your reality Every person we meet is fighting a battle we know NOTHING about. So I don't take your 'NOW' or Your pending Christmas with any status quo with any stereo-type.  But here is a different reality then mine. Than my pending Christmas. I post the below without a name it may be given later. I still wish for you a special time  at Christmas. Whatever they may be may it be an experience of wonder. May you be with Wise women and wise men. May you be a wise human Being a star with whoever  you gather with. FEEL the words below:: ******************* I cant help but feel that im wastin my time.. Im down in the dumps and im hatin my life.. Lost count on the tears that have rained from my eyes.. Cause its hard to deal with the pain thats inside.. I just ...

So Monday was the bone scanning experience.  NO result as yet -  and Monday forthcoming is my last scan. One big decision I needed to make is to accept the option of taking hormone therapy -  tablets & injections. I will firstly kick off with tablets for 14 days followed by monthly injections. There will be side effects! The first 12th December & second 9th January. The cancer I have is aggressive but the treatment will have positive impact immediately. It is not a cure but the objective is stop it spreading. I have already been informed that it has moved  beyond my prostate to other areas including bone. The recent scans will reveal how far the spread. No results on those yet! All seems like it will be long job. Maybe for the rest of my life! I don't know what the future holds but I know who holds the future. I will end with my expression of gratitude to the workers in the NHS. In all...

"How are you"? many people say. I can't just answer::  "I have prostate cancer that has spread to other parts including bones" Following my unexpected phone call yesterday I was able to fill a vacant gap at hospital for a bone scan. I knew it was scheduled but I slipped in early - really good. So it was an injection by a beautiful human nurse - followed by 2 hour wait before the 30 minutes scan. It was a massive item of machinery scanning all my body from above and my sides. My Doctor will get the 'results' letter and they copy me in. What was terrible - we were trapped in a hospital tail-back for more than an hour. Trying to get out. There had been an accident just outside I understand. I am so SO impressed by my every contact with the NHS. I have hardly had cause to call on them. A few broken ribs and twisted knee back in my Rugby League playing past! SERVANTHOOD is the word that comes to mind about the NHS BHP...

Never has my life been like this. Today I had a phone call asking if I could go for a bone scan. Another first in my life. Friday was a big hit when the beautiful human specialist informed me the the MRI scan & biopsies were bad news. The cancer in my prostate had spread beyond the prostate. It has permeated beyond into bone &  other parts of my human frame. Again new to me - it is a challenge to stop thinking about it all. I need some more mind over matter =  not thinking cancer all the time. My iPhone is used as a distraction. In bed, when I can't get to sleep,  I will read some Jack Reacher action man  -  an easy read by Lee Child. After a while - I turn over & sleep. This morning was an actual relief when the call came. Someone had cancelled an appointment leaving  a 3 hour slot vacant - for me. The adrenaline flowed positively as I showered. Some action was good news. th...

I was kind of numb most of yesterday. Feeling better today. Normal me thinks. Yesterday was the end of 'journey one'. Blood Tests MRI Biopsies  The result communicated to me so generously so gently so expertly with Joy & Joan present. My prostate cancer has spread to bone & other venues. More scans needed. More treatment:- injections ......... So I felt drained yesterday Tired - emotionally. Today I am more normal. Back to reality! It is all rather unreal. 'It is others who get cancer not ME' ! WARMTH - warming my soul:: I have had beautiful communication from so many Appreciated Love in action ONE was from my friends in  Germany:: we just listened to a wonderful text and think of you, your medical examination, our fragility ... Illumina by Lamb. Esp. the second verse is real Pip-truth:  He said, Each of us is broken She said, Well that‘s the greatest thing In ...

BHP You’re in a tough spot I try to stand near you In solidarity of a sort I cannot experience your anxiety But I know how you feel I always know how you feel  You are that rare breed A huge heart for youth Those bundles of energy and hurt, left dangling Look at the upstream, not the downstream Everyone is fighting a battle we do not understand Growth does not reside in a place called comfortable This wisdom has been carved From Lancashire terraces and East London tower blocks The backstreets of heaven From midnight clubs to a multi-storey YMCA To chaotic canvas cities packed to the rafters Where trifle trickles down your neck The land of the blob Where gutter feelings are shared, always shared Through unique fingertip touching Your accent m...