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MY REFLECTIONS COMPOSED ONE YEAR AGO  TODAY I was sat on the tube train. It has been 16 weeks in lockdown since this happened. I was with my beloved on this occasion. I felt like moving my hand over on to her lap. I didn't. I clocked the feeling though. It made me think. Sometimes in bed in a morning,  those silent moments  before the mind follows the body out of slumber  I just flop my arm over to her and she strokes it! In other occasions,  like on a flight - in the car,  I do that - she does that. HEAVEN. * One of my two remaining brothers lost his wife last week. Bless you Pat. She was a great adult friend to me in my teenage years. I used to call on her for a chat on my way home after BB - Youth Work project. An adult friend to me as my brother - her husband,  was in the forces in Egypt. * It made me think There are lots of little things which we would miss  if we lost our partner. Not just the big things. That day on the tube - I felt - I thought:: Thank God for feelings Than

Thank you Ian and for all the  other wondrous creations.  BHP 

 

  This is just a slice from a bigger -  LARGER   - more detailed Blob Tool Get people engaged in the:: Pub Youth Club Team Meeting Ice Breaker Street Corner Classroom Football Team Training Developmental Group Work ETC Download it free and use it in in many contexts /times / ways There is also a FREE 'How to use' manual GO SEE HERE:: www.blobtree.com BHP

….. every encounter They share words of wonder …….. BHP  *

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  DWELL ON THE SCARS YOU HAVE EXPERIENCED IN LIFE (the scars on the blob) INNER OUTER PHYSICAL EMOTIONAL RELATIONAL In some ways - SCARS can be Certificates ............... BHP *

 

 

So many I have met So many I meet

 

I am feeling a range of feelings as I am adapting to a new range of human assistance as the medication ones become more needed.  I am so tired so many times.  I don’t see many BHP’s as was normal.  When I get one call on me I seem to have energy to enjoy the encounter………. Then afterwards I feel flat & drained.  Forgive me for not being in touch with so many who make life worth living - my responses are slow or forgetful.  Stay with me.  I need your input.  I need my friends even though you may have experienced little from me sometimes.  ✅💲T🅰Y🅱eautiful✅  BHP 

 I have encountered so many feelings within me over many years. I have only started to manage them when I was around 40. Before then I was a reactor - allowing my feelings to dictate my responses to any given situation. I am still learning everyday, as an Emotion Detective, but since CANCER came into my life I am having to accept new feelings and begin a new area of discovery and management &, believe me, it is demanding radical change. Side affects he started to impact me alongside my increasing need of medication. Whereas the first half of my time with cancer had little demands on my life lived but NOW ........... I cannot ignore the many changes in my body and my new FEELINGS. Firstly a big positive is - I am pain free. HOWEVER ............... Tough times exist which are beyond physical pain - sleepless nights - memory loss - mood swings - desire to nod off all the time - (and I can't drive)  a total take-over of my body leaving me with lack of focus and direction = eventua

  “Creating the music for one of the biggest sports events in the world together with Bono and The Edge has been an incredible experience. I’m very proud of what we did together and excited to finally share it with the world,” said Garrix in a statement. ‘We Are The People’ reminds us that a song can look at the challenges facing the world at a given time and still attempt a unified response. It is a hymn sheet from which we can all sing wherever we may come from. ‘We Are The People’ hopes to reflect the positivity, hope and determination required for any team to succeed, as well as offer a sense of togetherness that fits the theme of UEFA EURO 2020: Unity.  For the first time in the UEFA European Football Championship, commonly referred to as UEFA Euro 2020 history, the tournament is being played across the continent in 11 host cities instead of one country. This includes Amsterdam, Baku, Bucharest, Budapest, Copenhagen, Glasgow, London, Munich, Rome, Saint Petersburg and Seville, wit

Senior Editor Producer I am proud of our girls in this case Ann  delivering a TV programme under pressure. U2 will feature too NOT in this pop music programme but with an input of music & creativity before the FOOTBALL kicks off tonight. Euro sport and U2 - can't beat it ! BHP

  Stumbled upon this today. Xtandi suddenly becomes news. I am into my second week of taking 4 tablets a day - for life - if the TREATMENT goes well. It is in the news today - have a read:: So far enzalutamide has been used as a so-called "COVID-friendly" cancer drug as patients can take it at home. Cancer Some men with prostate cancer could live longer thanks to immunotherapy Image: Prostate Cancer UK has welcomed the news.  Thousands of men are set to benefit from a new prostate cancer drug which has been approved for use on the NHS. The National Institute for Health and Care Excellence (Nice) has recommended enzalutamide as an option for treating some types of the disease. Prostate Cancer UK said the news was welcome for thousands of men, especially those who are unable to have chemotherapy. The drug has been used during the pandemic as a so-called "COVID-friendly" cancer drug, which patients can take at home instead of needing intravenous medication in a health

 

 

The big big problem is:: When we numb our unwanted feelings   ********** We also numb the positive feelings.  We can’t selectively numb emotions.  We need to learn how to manage all feelings, The positive  & The negative.  Welcoming all feelings.  Deciding how to manage everyone.  Become - join me - BECOME an EMOTION DETECTIVE BHP

We are big life time supporters and if we win this game on BBC TV SATURDAY we will be in the Wembley final.  Played the game in the local park since I was 5 years old and many teams since then.  We are supporters for life. So these coming days are nervy exciting times.  🎼🎵.•*¨*•♪🎵♫•*¨*•.¸¸¸.•*¨*•♪🎵♫•*¨*•.¸¸¸.when ♫•*¨*• ♫•*¨*•.¸¸¸.•* the ♫•*¨*• SAINTS ♫•*¨ ♫•*¨*•.¸ go¸¸.•* ♫•*¨*• marching ♫•*¨*•.¸¸¸.•* in ♫•*¨*•.¸¸¸.•* ♫   🅲🅾🅼🅴🏉🅾🅽🏉🆈🅾🆄🏉🆂🅰🅸🅽🆃🆂🏉 

  I have many various feelings as I reflect. I didn’t go to work on my first day. I went to my Auntie Mary’s funeral. My Mothers sister. We had moved in a few days before. I remember my Juke Box being loaded into the lift unusual sight to see it disappearing upwards to the second floor. We moved into the staff flat on the second floor. The block is, still is, eleven floors accommodating 150 beautiful young humans. We were MrsBeautiful The Sheilas - Ann and Joy. Ann still at school Joy at the London College of Fashion. We had moved a few miles east from Canning Town - London E16 Full of feelings - as I have now as I reflect. I remember standing in our flat lounge. Looking out over the roof of our big sports hall. Looking left we could see greenery  - some open space. Also we could see the narrow band of water called the River Rom. It felt liberating as we had lived in a concrete city for ten years. I breathed deep. There is a pile of reflections about this period of my life/our life in