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continuing ........&...... reflecting on the above:: MrsBeautiful tells me my GIFTS are:: Communication Passion Stickability My three are:: Warmth - people tell me I have humans warmth. Authenticity - being real. Vulnerability - I believe it is a strength not a weakness. Now I need to transpose these into life now. Better -  I believe I work with/at these now BUT The challenge is to change/develop/learn//live beyond the NOW. If these are reasonably true the task I have given myself is to give them away. Focus on them. Pass them on. I do this in my Experiential Training days & 121's. Maybe by writing too? More-so in these lockdown days. This idea, seems to me, I have a lifetimes work ahead!! BHP

  BECOMING QUESTIONS  I ask Questions :: When did you become an Adult ? why and when? One answer here:: I think I have a confusing answer to this one!!  In some ways I’ve been an adult since I was about 8 years old.  I had to look after myself for significant periods of time, get myself to and from places like school etc.  My mother is very much a child in an adult’s body, and I have had to look after most of my needs as a child as she was just not able to.  I think I have always been the adult in my family, as neither of my parents were available to be that person, so I learned quickly how to be independent, look after myself and look after others. At other times, I still wonder if I am an adult now?  I’m 40, but there are still so many times when I just don’t feel like I’ve grown up at all! I struggle so much with relationships and being level headed, that I feel like I can still act like a difficult teenager!  I can still throw an almighty stro...

  I had no faith until I was 21. I just lived like everyone else. Isn't that what we do - be the same as everyone around you? Faith in God gave me faith in life. One of the big shifts was to decide to give up not to strive to gain. I decided that to be in touch with my poverty, an interior thing / a journey into the unknown self. My faith has stumbled. Funny is I find the stumbling times are the learning times/growing times/change times. A big change was when I stopped being me/me and became me/we. My charismatic upfront leadership had to crumble I could not cope in the work with gangs and violence and loving so I turned into a team worker - TEAM Leader WE became the strategy and in team - we all grow. I have never lost faith since being 21. I mess up I wrong wrong wrong and stumble but I feel accepted - in the mess that I am. "SHIFT happens” BHP